The conv between me and my brain

I believe that there is something wrong in me
And I need to fix it
But I know I can't fix it myself
I need help from my family members or closest friends
Unfortunately, the don't pay attention to me
Or maybe it's just me who can't explain and express it best
I think I need a break
I want to travel alone in order to find out what really happened to me and my whole life
What I want for life, what should I do to live my life.
Now, I'm living with my parents and I have a boyfriend
They are good people, they treating me well
I supposed to be happy with all I have now
I have almost anything I need
But still, I feel something strange in me
I am not as happy as I am before
There's so much pressure on me, I can't contain
I want to be free choosing my life path
I need them to support my decision
I want them to help me build the future I'm dreaming of
Because I want them to be the part of my future 
I want to do what I love to do, doesn't it will make them happy too?